Personal Message to YOU.

Some of you are freaking out because I don't appear to be myself.

That's life. I don't have to kick every man in the ass 24/7. Okay I just did it about 30 seconds ago...don't change the subject.
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My sister, Briana, says YOU prefer to identify with the impervious, invulnerable ass-kicking Charmaine as opposed to the can-get-hurt-Charmaine.

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I'm not afraid of a little pain. Why are you?

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In conclusion, don't freak out just because I "let someone in" and he hurt me. (Truly people, I barely knew him.) But as my sister says, that's progress. I never allow ANYONE in. Not an inch. I have been magnificently loved so don't get me wrong. Still, I never let my guard down. I ran the show. Despite "having everything" (the house on the water, the Jag, everything money could buy and a man that loved me) I was not happy.

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In this quest for love you MUST allow yourself to be vulnerable and risk getting hurt. You can't outsmart love. He/it (whatever) knows what it's doing. Ha, as if I would go anywhere with any man who did not drag me by the hair into his cave kicking and screaming. See, I'm traditional AND modern. I like this about me.

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We need levity. PIRATE TATTOO PARTY at the Peterson's. Join me, won't you?
Of COURSE my 75 year old mother puts the tattoo on her chest. Where else?