Sunday, May 10, 2009

Personal Message to YOU.

Some of you are freaking out because I don't appear to be myself.

That's life. I don't have to kick every man in the ass 24/7. Okay I just did it about 30 seconds ago...don't change the subject.
My sister, Briana, says YOU prefer to identify with the impervious, invulnerable ass-kicking Charmaine as opposed to the can-get-hurt-Charmaine.
I'm not afraid of a little pain. Why are you?
In conclusion, don't freak out just because I "let someone in" and he hurt me. (Truly people, I barely knew him.) But as my sister says, that's progress. I never allow ANYONE in. Not an inch. I have been magnificently loved so don't get me wrong. Still, I never let my guard down. I ran the show. Despite "having everything" (the house on the water, the Jag, everything money could buy and a man that loved me) I was not happy.
In this quest for love you MUST allow yourself to be vulnerable and risk getting hurt. You can't outsmart love. He/it (whatever) knows what it's doing. Ha, as if I would go anywhere with any man who did not drag me by the hair into his cave kicking and screaming. See, I'm traditional AND modern. I like this about me.
We need levity. PIRATE TATTOO PARTY at the Peterson's. Join me, won't you?
Of COURSE my 75 year old mother puts the tattoo on her chest. Where else?


Hit 40 said...

Oh my heavens your mom is the sport!! What did you slip in her cup of tea for her to play the tatoo game with you?

LMAO!!! Excellent

namaste said...

looks like you guys are having a blast! thanks for the note to your reading public. i love your honesty.



The Unbreakable Child said...

Not freaking out! You go girl! nd Amen!!!

Michelle said...

I love you Charmaine!

Never stopped. You are my first girlie crush.


Joanie M said...

I love your Mom! She really rocks!

SweetPeaSurry said...

Oh hells bells girl ... I totally DIG your vulnerability. It's good, and once that's done you'll be ass-kicking again!


(lovely tats)

Don said...

Johnny Depp would be envious!