Saturday, August 29, 2009

It's Either Heaven or Hell

With The King and I, there is no in between.

Our relationship is like a bungee chord jump. We're either soaring towards the clouds or disastrously plummeting to the ground.

Until now, I blamed myself for our arguments. The other night I recognized it isn't me.

It's him.

He insults me.

I didn't see it. The thought of someone insulting me seemed absurd.

The other night, an insult hit below the belt.

He said something to the effect he'd called me, despite the fact he knew we were not compatible, because he was "horny".

He used the word "horny" in a sentence regarding ME. Huh?

I let it slide but it resurfaced. By the end of the evening I told him I never wanted to see him again.

It's happened before. I have a delayed reaction to his insults. I laugh them off but by the end of the evening I'm furious.

I don't bother to explain myself. I shouldn't have to. His remark was despicable. It's only funny because he'd been telling me he loved me minutes prior. I'm the one, bla bla bla. The sad thing is I thought the same thing.

Maybe he's trying to even the playing field. He wants desperately to believe he is superior to me. But it's not going to happen. Not in this lifetime.

Am I crazy? I mean, except for the fact I go around hugging statues in Santa Monica and wear sunglasses shaped like pineapples?


Senorita said...

You didn't see that it was him when he was insulting you ? How could that be when we were all here screaming at you that he is rude and insulting to you ?

We could've all told you that he is just using you. Why ? Because he can and he has.

He keeps doing this shit because you let him. If you would just tell him to fuck off, this wouldn't happen.

He is not intimidated and just trying to level the playing field. He is simply an asshole.

You telling him you never want to see him again means nothing to him because you've probably said the same thing to him before. If you took him back after he left you in a crime ridden neighborhood to fend for yourself, you will definitely take him back now.

You shouldn't explain yourself to him, you should just go.

Girl, you know I love you. I just hate reading about you getting insulted. Can't you find a nicer man ?

Senorita said...

P.S: There may be something wrong with your blogroll.

Your latest posting isn't showing, it just shows an old posting.

To us readers, it appears that you haven't posted in a while.

Or maybe it's just me and my blogroll.

Charmaine said...

Damn Senorita,

I know you're right. When you've been a man ass kicker like I've been my whole life, it's hard to see when you cross that invisable line.

Your self definition prohibits you from seeing what is right in front of you.

There is only one ass I'm kicking now, it's my own.

I CAN find a nicer man. It's been 24 hours and my dance card is already full.

My problem has never been a dearth of options. Love ya chica.

Charmaine said...

I don't even know what my blog roll is. What is it?

I have noticed some weird things with my blog recently. I can't upload images or edit posts.

I don't get it. Damn-it.

Joanie M said...

Oh Char, you and my friend, Tina could be twins. I don't know why she keeps going back to the same guy, but she does. Is being with an asshole better than being alone? I don't understand it.

Comedy Goddess said...

That statue looks horny to me.

The Peach Tart said...

OK sweetie you are better and bigger than abusive treatment. We teach people how to teach us. Teach him a new respectful way or better yet find a new honey that appreciates you.

SSP said...

tsk tsk tsk...however, iwill leave it at that, because i read your blog and I feel like I am looking in the mirror sometimes..... said...

Why watch the daily soap operas when you can come here?


Eat Well. Live Well.

Charmaine said...

Joanie M- It's so weird. I have been treated so well by men my entire life. It's why I found it hard to believe what was happening before my very eyes. I confused the insults with sarcasm. By the time I realized what was happening I was in too deep.

Comedy Godess - I think that statue looks a little suspicous too. But I went and hugged it anyway.

The Peach Tart - I don't know how it happened. I think that's the key. Its insidious and creeps up on you shrouded in words like, "I love you" or "You're the one". You want to hear those words, not the others. Luckily every self respecting woman does eventually wake up.

SSP - Some day you'll come out here and you and I will go out on the town, laugh at boys and drink champagne.

Paul - You've got that right. And I'm just getting started. I have more stories where that one came from.

Kelly said...

Kick him to the curb and put him out with the rest of the trash.

That's it. That's the list.

SweetPeaSurry said...

YOU are not crazy ... but we need to get you out of that crazy country called Californ Aye AYY!!!

Yup yup ... time to find you a country where the men are fair and balanced, like a budget or a diet! YUMMY!

LOVES YA crazy or not!


Liam said...

I think the guy you're with in the post below seems better suited to you.

Don said...

I don't know where you find all these guys but you are definitely looking in the wrong bin! I've got to say though that you calling yourself a "man ass kicker" doesn't bode well. Relationships built on who kicks whose ass have got to be short-term. If that's ok with you, go for it. Oh, and I would expect it to take a great deal more than 24 hours!

Mike said...

Testing 1...2...4...

Charmaine said...

Oh jeez people. I'm 50% sincere and 50% full of bologne.

I keep trying to make sence of things that don't make sence. In other words, men.

Sharon said...

I really couldn't stand him. I'm glad you finally kicked him to the curb.

High Desert Diva said...

Just catching up with your dating forays.

You crack me up.

I did a how-to post on hyperlinking:

You need to learn how to do this...just sayin'....

The Other Charmaine