Tuesday, November 18, 2008

How do you know if you are in love?

I've been absent. I was too embarassed to admit that I began seeing Evil Surfer Dude...again (sort of...okay, just once).

Don't look at me like that. Someone should slap me.


I sent him a three page break up email (so immature). In it, I detailed the ways in which we were not compatible. He ignorned my words.

As usual my teleportation device proved to be fully functional. Bam, he was on the doorstep a few days later. He declared his love.

But you can't go backwards. Even if you want to. In a way..I wanted to.

A few days before this I went on a date with "The Vern" who, as mentioned, stated that we would make a terrific married couple. He loved me for alot of years. We went on one of our famous progressive dinners. All the best restuarants in town from Splashes to Studio. But it wasn't the same. We could not go back.

It made me sad.

You have to get rid of the old in order to make room for the new.

At first I was embarassed. Then I realized that you can revisit the past as many times as you like in order to get it right.

But ultimately the past has to be discarded. Maybe the better word is released.

We have to release people...sometimes.


Mike said...

As long as you learned a lesson it's a good thing.

SSP said...

no, i think we cling to them as long as we can until we have wrung every ounce of insecurity that we can out of the relationship-with-no-future. Then we miss them when they are gone, but we are not sure what we miss...it sure wasn't that great while we had it, but at least it was SOMETHING....and now you have NOTHING, so it MUST have been better.....well, that is just me, I guess....

Do what is right for you. Do or do not, there is no try :-)

Michelle J said...

Hey missy
I think you are just being you, enjoying things. Evil surfer is fun because you work out together, hmmm i mean play frisbee. Just have fun. Let the future take care of itself. Because, there is no future. It's just today. So, enjoy!!!

Missed ya by the way girlie!!!

Charmaine said...

SSP - I think you're right. Mike: Peace my bruthuh.
Michelle, word.

JIMSIGHT said...

He who is in love is wise and is becoming wiser, sees newly every time he looks at the object beloved, drawing from it with his eyes and his mind those virtues which it possesses.

don't you just love ermerson....hi charming

Briana said...

Your "release" of people means just that you let out the length of the leash. It's kind of a reverse version of "if you set them free and they come back, it was meant to be." For you, even though you want them to go away, they come back, and that means you need to take them back.