Monday, August 31, 2009
You never know who your friends are. Not really.
They say, "A friend in need is a friend indeed".
It means, when you're down and out... your real friends rise to the surface.
I only have a small handfull of friends. People I would do anything for, help move, paint their house...that kind of thing. Things no body wants to do.
But I have a couple. For some reason they tolerate me, my frequent absences and quirkly behavior. To say I love them for it, is an understatement.
I have a friend. His name is Rick. If you'd asked me 15 years ago I would not have counted him among them. But as time goes on, I find a new appreciation for him and yes, his friendship.
After all, he was the one who rescued my phone from the cab driver in Long Beach after The King stranded me there. I'll never forget it.
He took me to a concert the other night. I know the only reason he asked is because there was not another soul available but, for some reason, I don't care. When you're friends, you don't care. It's not the same thing as a relationship.
Relationships come and go. Friends are forever.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I went to a concert tonight. I prefer the opera.
But combine a concert with three (3) bands from the 70's with front row center seats...well, it's more fun when the musicians are close enough to sweat on you.
The guitarist from Cheap Trick dropped guitar picks into my palm. (Okay, so he threw them at me but I'm romantic and like to re-write history).
The lead singer from Poison hugged me. (Okay, he shook my hand but I felt a deep, personal connection.)
My friend could have paid my rent with the money he spent on the seats.
It did not go unnoticed that the guitarist from Cheap Trick looked, and acted, bizarrely like a certain someone. I crossed my arms and gave him the evil eye, just in case.
Apparently the evil eye is irresistable. It gets you on the megatron which ain't bad when you're a 48 year old broad.
Surrender by Cheap Trick:
Saturday, August 29, 2009
With The King and I, there is no in between.
Our relationship is like a bungee chord jump. We're either soaring towards the clouds or disastrously plummeting to the ground.
Until now, I blamed myself for our arguments. The other night I recognized it isn't me.
He insults me.
I didn't see it. The thought of someone insulting me seemed absurd.
The other night, an insult hit below the belt.
He said something to the effect he'd called me, despite the fact he knew we were not compatible, because he was "horny".
He used the word "horny" in a sentence regarding ME. Huh?
I let it slide but it resurfaced. By the end of the evening I told him I never wanted to see him again.
It's happened before. I have a delayed reaction to his insults. I laugh them off but by the end of the evening I'm furious.
I don't bother to explain myself. I shouldn't have to. His remark was despicable. It's only funny because he'd been telling me he loved me minutes prior. I'm the one, bla bla bla. The sad thing is I thought the same thing.
Maybe he's trying to even the playing field. He wants desperately to believe he is superior to me. But it's not going to happen. Not in this lifetime.
Am I crazy? I mean, except for the fact I go around hugging statues in Santa Monica and wear sunglasses shaped like pineapples?
Monday, August 17, 2009
We stopped in Huntington Beach for a margarita. The sound of drums beaconed from the pier above. Wee, break dancers, my favorite! The dancers selected members from the audiance to participate in the grand finale. One pointed at me, walked up, hand outstretched. I feigned shyness, "Oh no, not ME. No, really, I couldn't. (blink blink) ". Then I began to walk to the makeshift stage. "Not YOU, he said. "HIM" and grabbed The King. Most people become shy when the center of attention. Not The King. Not even close.
Monday, August 10, 2009
72 hours later, I did it.
It’s ironic. We have so much fun. I have never behaved this way; storming off in huffs, causing arguments and getting jealous.
Why do I do it? Something nags from an insidious corner of my mind, “You’re not in charge.” (Iwanna be the boss.) But he holds all the cards. How does a person relinquish control when it’s the only thing they ever had? Control has kept me safe. If you've never been in danger, you can't possibly understand.
In this case, our argument was about Kobe Bryant. How many people break up over Kobe Bryant?
(Sound of crickets)
When I am an irrational bitch he says “Don’t ever change or I’ll break up with you.” It's fall down funny. He's funny and he's right...I can't go 72 hours. Give me some loser and I can keep THAT going for years.
We have a good thing, I think, “I have the greatest guy on earth” then Bam... he says, “Kobe is great” and it's game on, or game over...depending on your perspective.
I say, “He’s a rapist”. He says, “That woman wanted money”. I think to myself, “That’s the way a civil law suit works, dummy".
What I said out loud to my date was, “you’ll change your tune when he rapes your daughter”.
Is Kobe Bryant a legitimate reason to break up?
Anyone care to comment?
Thursday, August 6, 2009
"Hey Char" he said. I'll be in Paris when you are in Ireland. Meet me in Paris. I'll take you out on the town.
I would like nothing more then to have dinner with Pool Boy, in Paris. He's a gentleman. We might walk the streets after dinner and gaze at the stars. Hurting women does not interest him. He's strong. He doesn't need to make a lady cry, not like "The King" did. Maybe we'd take a BATEAUX along the river Sienne. Then I'd go home.
Paris is the perfect place to mend a broken heart.
Pool Boy isn't looking for anything. He's just trying to make a connection and be a good man.
I didn't know. Not until now. Still, give me a moment to shake off "The King". (Drops to one knee) It's okay. You're not used to brutal honesty. People are so rarely honest these days.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Pa said if a 5-foot termater plant produces jest one termater...I did something wrong.
I gots me a green bell pepper. I did something right.
I don't care what they learned ya in school... but lettuce IS a tree.
An rights on over yonder we have some green termaters, like in the movie, "Fried Green Termators". And thats me, Farmer Char, bringing you this live report from the rural backwoods of Corona Del Mar, California. Come back later ya'll, won't you?
Sunday, August 2, 2009
The next minute, you have nothing.
It’s amazing really.
It doesn’t “happen” to you. You choose it.
Something cracks inside. You realize how angry you are at every mediocre person that tried to take advantage or stab you in the back. The number of hours I spent defending myself in my career was astounding. I fought endless guttersnipes and smiling Christians.
You revisit the past, all the way back to the cardiologist that killed your father and got away with it.
Then you’re sitting in your living room. You don’t know if you can pay the rent this month. You only know you can’t take another heartbreak.
You start drinking too much, acting like a fool.
But it’s the anger that surprises you. I didn’t know I was so angry.
Do you respect me less because I didn’t play the game to the end?
I want honor above success.
Then, just when you think you're at your wits end, you watch a video of Karl Rove rappin...and all is right with the world.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Yes, I am.
I am too. I can prove it.
I just received my European Union Passport.
What does it mean? I can fulfill my dream of becoming an international spy. But I forgot to change my name. Why am I so stupid?
When you have a European Passport you can work immediately. You don’t have to wait for a work Visa; you’re just “in”. You’re one of “the gang” everyone loves you; you’re a supa star. Uh…
The application process was a literal nightmare. I could NOT have done it without my baby sis (an attorney). She filled out the application and sent me a letter detailing where to sign and which items to get notarized. But I STILL screwed up.
As a result, she developed a healthy relationship with the Consulate General of Ireland.
They called, “Ach sure be Jesus, what is wrong with your fecking bloody stupid sister? She such a feckin moron, we don’t want her. Tell her to sod off and go to Germany.”
Rock Climber? Nah. Too risky.
Boobie bouquet model. (I’ll bet you never heard of THAT one.)
Okay, then. How about eyeball model?
Come on. Work with me people.
Can you see my blueberry? You don’t know joy until you grow blueberries. Can you see it?
How about now?
It’s difficult to pick one thing when you have so many talents.